What hurts us the most…

…is something we probably can’t imagine. We must learn to accept that life will give us the most painful of blows when we are at our highest points – when we least expect it.

This is where I learned to be humble. To know that not even love can conquer all. To know to role of our choices balanced with our feelings. To know that we can’t make the right moves all the time and react in the way we should have. To know that there are simply some things in life that we will regret. To know that some of the most valuable lessons in life are also the most painful.

I think I failed recently. I failed to understand and be patient. I failed to be humble. I failed myself. For a while back I wanted to roundhouse kick myself in the face for all these failures. Good thing that a few important people in my life made me realize where I didn’t fail.

They said I didn’t fail to love.

To those who saw me disappear like I usually do for a few days, know that for the first time I didn’t do this for my own selfish reasons. To find meaning, to bathe in solitude, etc etc like I usually do when I go out of sight & out of mind for some time. This time around, I did it for someone else. I did it for love. I know this is true because I wasn’t aware of this until those who truly knew me pointed it out.

Funny how I am usually confused as to what love is – and still am. But I am at peace that this is indeed true. For making me realize this, I thank these people with all my heart. You know who you are.

This is one of the greatest, most profound feelings I have ever had in my life. For this reason, I simply believe that there must be a God. I don’t believe in a life of too much coincidence – only a life of faith.

All will be well!

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